Brittany Rebecca Helton

Worried…

by on Dec.13, 2010, under Thoughts and Feelings

Brittany, I am worried about your Brett. He is back in communication with certain unstable individuals that made him feel so horrible over the past 4 1/2 months. I sent him a text message last night telling him that I would always be here for him and to not let anyone make him feel bad about anything. He has so much going on in his head and in his world, and all he wants is what everyone else wants…..to have you back and safe and have everything be ok. What I wouldn’t give to have that again!

I was laughing last night with Ben about when I was pregnant with you and how you used to shake your little bum around and I would watch it and Grandma would be in amazement at how you moved!! I had to sleep sitting almost straight up at 4 or 5 months along with you because you needed to stretch out, I guess. You pushed everything up into my rib cage and I could not breathe for the life of me! You were such a big baby! And such a fattie! My little chunky monkey! Who would have known that you would grow up to be such a petite tiny little thing? Always beautiful.

Christmas is  coming up and I am not in the mood. I put the tree up and the decorations up for your little sisters, but I truly do not feel that I can do this. I hate this feeling.

I love you~~~~