Brittany Rebecca Helton

Your sissy had a dream….

by on Dec.22, 2010, under Thoughts and Feelings

So, I was getting ready for work this morning (because  I CAN leave the house) and sissy was in my room with me telling me about a dream that she had and you were in it.  (I like that you come and visit us!!) Anyway, she said that she and Jeff were talking to you and that they were the only ones that could see and hear you, so she asked you why you did what you did and you told her ‘because I wanted everyone to know that SHE hated me.’ When sister asked you who you were talking about, you told her it was the CRAZY. (Ok, maybe not your exact words, but you get the jist of it.) Sissy said that after that dream, she felt better about things. I hope that she will be able to find peace now. We all know how sissy feels about you, and why the CRAZY hated you.

It’s funny that she can brag about the fact that her name is on your birth certificate, AFTER 17 YEARS! The one thing she will never be able to brag about is the fact that I gave birth to you and I held you for the first time. I fed you and changed your diaper for the first time and I was the one that you came home with.  All I can do is pray for her and hope that she finds peace in her own guilt about what she did to you.

Thank you for visiting us over the past 3 days. It has been raining like crazy here! It’s nice to have you home for Christmas. I know that we are going to see you more often now that you can do whatever you want without the psycho eye watching over you!! Are you here because you know this is where you belong? Are you here because you miss your mom and your sisters?

I hope you are staying safe up there. Find Bubby, he will protect you. He always loved you. Try to get some rest. God know you need it more than anyone. After everything you have been through in your short life, you deserve to rest without any CRAZY disturbing you.

I love you!