Brittany Rebecca Helton

It’s 2011, but I wish it were 2003

by on Jan.03, 2011, under Thoughts and Feelings

Because if it were, you would be here in Las Vegas were you belong, with me and your sisters, and I never would have let you go when they called and lied about you father being deployed. Well, ok, he was, 6 WEEKS LATER. Legally you should have stayed with me, but why should they have followed the law then when they never did any other time anyway.

I hope that you had an amazing New Year’s party up there with all the loved ones from our family. Nonie and Grandpa, Bubby, Sasha, Mr. Nibbles, Uncle Pete, our cousin Sherri (you would absolutely love her and I know that she is looking over you for me). We did not do anything. I guess everything that has gone on over the past 6 months or so has caught up to me because all I wanted to do was sleep, and that is exactly what I did. Well, I did get up and out of the house enough to get my hair done, you know ‘because I’m old and gray’ apparently. But at least I can leave the house!! haha Then Ben and I had some lunch then we went back home and hung around for a while then we watched the ball drop on TV and by 9:05pm we were in bed! I thought about you the whole time, wondering what you were doing. Hoping you were having a great time! I am sure that you looked beautiful.

I will be traveling soon for work, and I think it will be a good thing. I will have a chance to get out of Las Vegas for a bit and get to see some old friends.

OH!!! Not that I need to tell you, but it was snowing here this morning!! It was so beautiful and it made me think that you were here….clearing out all the garbage and bringing in all the new beautiful things for the new year.  Thank you for that! Mom so needed a sign from you that you are still here with me. I will put some pictures up later.

You’ve worked hard this morning sweetheart, so now its time for you to rest. I love you.