Brittany Rebecca Helton

I’m finally home!!!

by on Jan.22, 2011, under Thoughts and Feelings

I have been traveling so much for work baby, and I just got home today. I’ve missed your sisters and Ben and the dogs so much. My mind is on you and as the walk gets closer (only 2 weeks away) I have found that I am thinking of you more and more. It’s just CRAZY how the time has flown by. I am also excited to see you sissy and Jeff in 2 weeks. I just wish that we were not doing the walk because you are gone. I wish that it was something that WE ALL were doing together, as a contribution to the community. Instead, you are not here, and we are walking in your honor and with your memories consuming us. I have been asked to do something, and it was a great honor to me. I am doing it for you, to get your story out. I will let you know how it goes! I am both nervous and excited, and sissy is going to help me. I truly do not know what I would do without her and your little sisters. You all mean the world to me. They are and always have been (you are included in that) my main focus. No matter what was going on in life, I knew that I always had 4 beautiful daughters that I could be proud of. The 4 of you shined light in my life, and continue to do so.

You know, you may not have been with me at the time that you died, but that does not change the fact that I hurt just as much as others. There is no level of pain that someone else feels that is more or less than the pain that I am feeling. I missed you when you were alive, and I miss you now that you are gone. I loved you when you were alive, and I love you still even though you are gone. You were never any different than any of the other girls. YOU are MY daughter just like your sisters. I gave birth to all of you, and no one can ever take that away from me.

I adore you!