Brittany Rebecca Helton

Just thinking of you….

by on Apr.05, 2011, under Thoughts and Feelings

like I do everyday. I have pictures of you above my computer at work, and I look at your smiling face everyday. I wish I had known that you were hurting so badly. I wish you had just said one thing to someone so that we could help you. I am so sorry that you had to go through what you did. I wish that I could turn the clock back to that day that I left Germany without you and your sister. I did not have a choice to take you. Your father hid both of the passports so I could not do anything. I wanted to run away with you both and he refused to let me take you. If I had known then what I know now, I never would have left. I would have dealt with the drama of him cheating and leaving you and I and your sister to fend for ourselves in a foreign country. I would have refused to leave without both of you. Ultimately, he is the reason why you are no longer here. You should be here with us. You should have been here for my birthday and for your sister’s birthday. It is not fair that we are sad because we will never get a call from you to say Happy Birthday or just to say Hi. I hope that one day I am not angry at what you have done.

I love you….from day one I have always loved you.