Brittany Rebecca Helton

Missing you so badly…..

by on Apr.29, 2011, under Thoughts and Feelings

I had a rough night last night. I have been thinking about you so much and I miss you everyday. I hate that you are gone. I would give anything to have you back again. All I want to do is lay down next to you and never let you go again. I love you so much and I hate the fact that I have to put on a fake smile everything I am having a bad day. I feel like I can’t talk to people about it because I feel like most people are tired of hearing about it all the time. I can talk to gram. She understands, or tries to. She is a good person for me to talk to. She misses you too, so very much. I don’t like talking to sissy about it because I know how much it hurts her that you are gone. I don’t want to upset her and I just want her to be happy. So, most of the time, I just keep it inside and don’t say anything. I cry in the shower, with the lights off. I cry in the car when no one is with me.

I love you baby….